"We Gamble By Chances"

Backdated news. 7th Dec went out with the girls. :) Christina, Jasmine and Shirleen.
Went from Haji to town. HAHHA. Bought my bodycon dress from haji!! (L) Satisfied. Before that ate lunch with shirleen at bugis. ATE AT yoshi while waiting for jas and chris to arrive. Camwhored like there was no tmr. Chrissy had her time of her life snapping unglam pictures all the way. THIS NAUGHTY LITTLE GIRL!! Is continuous somemore. So all the pictures like movements after movements. Check it out on fb. HAHAH!! After haji headed down to wisma to slack at some 5th floor place. THERE THE SNAPPING WENT ON CONTINUOUSLY..

Had our extentions done at far east. HAHA. All of us!! After that went to orange julius near wheelock. Headed back home.

Another Horizon;
VTHN.

"The World Is Your Oyster"

So wondering whether "Body World" is worth going?? Here's the answer. Yes it is(x10000000) K this is enough to assure you. :) Boring No, but INTERESTING!!

It was really something not to be missed. Well you still have time to think it over. The exhibition is until March 2010 i think. Real human bodies plus a tad bit of animal.(Horse, deer, rabbit, giraffe etc) Totally real. Not some plastic toys you see on the road. I was like OMG, COOL!! reading every single bit of description it had beside the figurines. :) Muscles, veins, heart, liver, kidney, embryos, lungs, brain, sexual organs, bones etc. ALOT LA!! Many people were amazed by the fact that they had this xray view of an intercourse. HAHHA. abit sick la. But still... that's under "BODY WORLD". AHHAHA. Good for your bio i guess. :)

Now i'm exhausted. Tired from all those fickle-ness. It should just come to an end la. Since you only have 1 life to live why dont just make the best use of it. Dont make empty promises. I rather have direct answers. If you cannot just say cannot. Promises are not meant to be broken i believe?? Excuses are just merely words to cover up for yourself and not show the other party the blunder that you have just created.. Dont turn your back after creating a mess out of it. It's just futile. I really really sincerely hope that the next generation do not turn out more of this kinda character. So i believe at that point in time, we are going to be parents and teaching our children proper moral values and all.

I've gotta major headache now. Ticking off all my brain cells. I'm just too drained out from walking and thinking..Somehow the harder you wish for it, the more you dont get it. Do you believe in that??

"Let laughters & smiles in, as we will be just left with wrinkles in time to come"

Words are not meant to be spoken too freely dear mother.
It wasn't the first time.
Be it a friend or foe, I will not close an eye to anything.
You saw me through 15 years, didnt you understand me well enough??
I tend to Rebel and not Obey. Though Obeying often makes peace but i dont take that.
So take it or leave it. (I GO AGAINST)
That's all the space i need to make my emotions felt.

The truth is a stranger;
VANthn.

"You're Delusional"

Had a drive

Driven by your love

But when you messed around

I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed

Needed someone true

But you changed your mind

Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart
The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin' proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you

Loving you, losing you

It's sad to be true

And be fooled by you

I don't know (I don't know)

I gotta know..

Should I stay or should I go?

Chinese tuition coming up soon~ Sigh, another piece of homework. (COMPO I BET YOU). Compre instead//
Oh Yes!! I'm going for "Body World" this sunday. HAHA. At science centre. Bloody interesting. My 2nd time to "Body World". Real bodies being plasticized/ Quite gross but cool la. AHHAHA. Can see all the real veins and bones you wanna see there. Science coming to you 3D eh. Textbook only 2D. Gooooo NOWWW.. :)

K listen to me. Worth your $$ not kidding.
7th dec. Outing?? Pls confirm folks. :)
Is new moon overrated or is it just really plainly nice?? Everybody on the road says how good the movie was and all the positive comments. I'm just a domain volcano who takes in all the ashes(comments) and doesnt blow up. Everybody going "ga-ga" over the fact that it is now screening. Then i like okay okay. HAHAH. Ok abit absurd.

Wait. Am i hearing things?? Snow Patrol is coming to Spore?!
What about Daughtry?!:(

I'll catch you soon!
VanT.

"The Secret Garden"

It's 12, i've heard the chime. It just reminded me that november has just passed and i should panic now. 2009 seems a little pretty too fast for me. I guess its prolly due to all those structured lessons we have, ccas, camps, trainings etc etc. Being primeval, having lived for the past 15 years of my life have taught me that some secrets are meant to be shrouded. Inevitably, our actions and words we use can sometimes just be a dead give away.

Recently, my table has been invaded by unwanted scrap papers, stationery, magazines, post-its, tags, labels and lastly dust. I'm sure all these dont sound foreign to you, and i'm definitely am sure that at any point in time you will have at least 2 of the above items lying on your table.
We tend to keep things that perhaps belong to the past 15 years of our lives and not discard them away. Eventually we will develop the habit of piling them higher and higher. Or even better just scatter them everywhere at every corner of the house. Have you wondered why O why are these white elephants still around when they should have been discarded long ago..

Well the answer just lies deep within ourselves. It's our "JUST-IN-CASE-WE-NEED-THEM" nature or shall i call it every human natural response to these white elephants.

Having read that whole junkful of words, you might be thinking what am i coming around at. Sometimes I love beating around the bush and it just ends up nowhere. Kinda thrills me to see those "pathetic" looks on the readers face when they are actually reading whole heartedly & trying to understand what on earth am i talking about BUTTT they just dont get it. Those expressions are surely sensational and priceless :) HAHA.

People are beginning to set into their comfort zone and lack that EXTRA drive in them. Namely myself included. :) HAHHA. Pot calling the kettle black. That's just me la. K. Home Alone=wild imagination=fountain of ideas!! :) Have you ever had a long break and you've never seen your fellow pals for like ages and you feel like catching up with them but simultaneously, the feeling of "estranged-ness" get the better of you and you just dont feel like meeting them face to face?? I think i've encountered that before. That was way back 6 years?? HAHA.
I just feel that we were not as close as before. You have your aspirations and i have mine and mayb we both know that....

It has been a week since i last touched my holiday homework and it's december now. How i wish sometimes we can just be engulfed in this magical time capsule.. My december holidays are partially ruined. I think i only have like a couple of days here and there free. What a sad life i've got. I still havent really had the time of my life yet. Is this what you get for being a 15 year old teenager once in your whole entire life?? Is it ever true that once you hit adulthood, you are just juggling your time around and squeezing whatever schedule you have in that pathetic 60 mins??
Damn ittt, why do i have so many questions??!! I'll give myself more work by finding out the answers to these (rubbish) questions!! *SIGH*

And of course, HEAD OUT!! I STILL HAVENT HAD MY SHOWER YET..
i'm done for now..

Same Direction;
Vanessa/

"You & I Collide"

Today is Saturday=END of the cheerleading camp/training. I'm having mixed feelings. Quite happy that it ended but sad that it ended. Ah, dont know la. Overall it was GOOD. Had a good workout and all. Abs/Conditioning training was the best?? HAHA. Though quite painful. But i think it was worth it. :) WHOO HOO.

Why do pretty girls always end up with gross boyfriends? I just dont get it. I think they deserve better. Like really deserve better. ( X infinity times) Is either like jerks/ugly looks/bastards/suckass/some ah bengs. I think life quite unfair uh. Agree with me this statement. I bet you are nodding your fat head now. :) Is really damn heart pain to see them putting so much in a relationship and they just end up getting nothing. No Love. All back to square one. Wah can you like feel the impact?! Yes you do. From all these, i conclude putting too much in a relationship just leads you to nowhere? feeling more drained out than ever.. Feeling more heart pain than ever.. Sometimes efforts you put in is not appreciated. That is Worst case la!!

Lets TALK ABOUT MY CHEERLEADING= MORE AWESOME TOPIC..
K TODAY WE DID FRONT HAND SPRING. (BOO) WAH I SCREAMED TILL LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. QUITE EMBARRASSING AH. LIKE I WAS BEING FLIPPED 360 degrees. That was indeed mind blowing. That instructor sabo me somemore. Flipped me thrice. Not twice BUT 3 TIMES K. NOT FUNNY. DONT LAUGH. IT WAS LIKE OH MY DAMN GODDDDD!! WTH. Handstands were brilliant. All time love. (L) Cartwheels too. Tee HEEE. HAHHA.

I drank like 2 servings of bubble tea today. Do i get any repercussion by drinking too much bubble tea?? I scared uh. The second one was like a treat from this auntie who was in-charge of the infinity cheerleading. Shiokk. Oreo!! THANKS LADY!!

I think my impression of cheerleaders change abit?? I use to think that they are like some bitches or sluts?? HAHAH. But i think they are like still abit?? Not all la. They are like some cool people who can do wonderful stunts and all. Brave people. Not afraid of heights.. They are just Phenomenal. Seriously... Flips and Turns. Gymnast alike.

My leg so itchy now. Got some stupid flies flying around. Annoying me only. URRHH. :(
My toes are filled with corns? They are like so bloody dry and like EWWWWWW. damn gross. Cannot stand it.

I have this motto for r'ships:
Once broken up, dont get back together again. Cos it is really really super no face. Dont be a failure as women. :) Lift your head high and move on!! ^^V!!

As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering will i ever see another sunrise?
So many wont get the chance to say goodbye
But it's too late to think of the value of my life

And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And Im terrified but Im not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger..

Even The Wrong Words Seem To Rhyme;
Vthn//

"Toy Soldier Lanyard"

The cheerleading training is coming to an end. 2 more lessons to go(counting today). It was an excruciating process all in all. Worst training i had ever in my whole entire life!! Stretches after Stretches. Stunts after Stunts. Flips after Flips. Handstands after Handstands. Cartwheels after Cartwheels. Tumbles after Tumbles. Cheers after Cheers. Pain AND MORE PAINN. It has been a routine for me i guess. Well at least i can do a cartwheel!! Not that good tho. But yeah. I'll get it right:) HAHAHA. Handstands were nice when you had the trainers support when they hold your legs straight up in the air. The Feeling was awesome!! :)

Practically home just before dinner. So my days were just all burnt out by the training. What i can only feel right now is muscle pulling. All of them are just contracting in every direction, they cant seem to relax and this is really freaky. Later i'll get spasms. ):

I FEEL DAMN BLOODY SORE AND I DONT FEEL LIKE MOVING. AH. IF YOU ARE WONDERING WHY AM I SO FREE TO BLOG, JUST TO LET YOU KNOW THE TIME NOW IS 10:08. :) So I have to be in school by 12. That leaves me with approximately 2hours. K.
I think i'm addicted to all the stunts and all especially handstands. HEHEHE. It is awesomely fun. I've never done a single damn cartwheel in my whole entire childhood life and i just done it during this training. COOL OR NOT?! HAHAHAH. Oh yes backflip almost scared the wits out of me. WAH almost died!! D:

The Trainers were exceptionally entertaining and friendly plus full of jokes. HAHAH.
Well, i was quite hesitant to go for this training but i think it kinda change my thinking. So yeah. It was really enjoyable.

3rd dec go out. WATCH WHAT MOVIE? NO SUGGESTIONS AH. haizzzz..

I'll catch you soon;
Vanessa//

"Russian Roulette"

Saturday Night Out.

1. Went to Haji Lane. Bought my nice crop top!!:) WHOOHOO.
2. Homeclub for Flea Mania
3. Far East Plaza for miscellaneous..

I got my awesome Denim Jacket for like a wonderful price. Too Satisfied; speechless.
The Christmas decorations and lighting put up along orchard road was the most spectacular thing you can ever see. (In the NIGHT only la). It felt so surreal as though you were living in another world and that feeling was beautiful. Lights came out in different patterns, directions and colours etc. They were so bright, so much so that the road lamps might have felt a little awkward to be turn on. :) Deonn & Atika were supposed to go too but they had some personal/family commitments hence their absence.

Atika, are you proud of me?!! I got a nice price for my denim jacket 8) HAHAH!!

Frankly speaking, we took pictures. I mean me and shirleen. But somehow that girl doesn't want to upload it. I dont know why tho. So it'll just be ME AND ONLY ME typing this whole post relentlessly. *APPLAUSE HUH*

Did i mention that I'm currently attending this new chinese tution recommended by JOYCE THE RESOURCEFUL AGENT. Well, from what i can see from my current and most recent situation i am in right now, I am directly/indirectly giving myself more work to handle when i cannot even find a proper time to officially finish all those undone scrap homework on my table. By going for that tution,hoping i can lazily improve myself by just thinking that work given would only be done in the class itself ANDDDD not as HOMEWORK had just rang a bell to me that my thinking is officially all wrong. Just to let you know, I've got more work to do. From the way i see, i think every weekend we will be given at least 1 compo to bring home to do PLUSSSSSS spelling to top it off. So as you can see the current situation i am now in is like chaotic plus more hectic.

/I'm sorry if you dont understand that paragraph because is like about tution and all, so yeah/

23.24.25.26.28=CHEERLEADING training. Splendid!!(with sarcastic tone)
Tmr dental appointment. (Pain)

I've just learnt something during the weekend by just watching the programme "Trace". (Is like MTV like that la with all the latest songs)
People in other country can just take their life to gamble so easily.

Russian Roulette is a potentially lethal game of chance in which participants place a single round in a revolver,spin the cylinder, place the muzzle against their head and pull the trigger.
"Russian" refers to the supposed country of origin of the game and "Roulette" to the element of risk-taking and the spinning of the revolver's cylinder being reminiscent of spinning a roulette wheel. The participants will have a probability of 1 out of 6 chance to die. As there are 6 bullets and only 1 of them contains the genuine bullet.

Never in my wildest dream would i ever thought that people on this earth would play such a "yes an innovative game, but to me a ridiculous and stupid game/dare." It is just utterly overboard. Just that word to describe it. Okay I feel like i'm discriminating it but i'm sorry tho. :)

Sometimes i wonder what would the fashion in year 2022 bring about??
That'll make me a 28 years old young lady.
These are the things that make me feel that..... (you add it in yourself)...

Sustaining it;
VanTAN.

"A Miracle Drug"

Overdued. Had Church bbq on sat. It was GOOD!! YUMM. ATE MY FAV STINGRAY. :) Whoohoo. I've just realised that i went for 3 bbq parties in like what less than 3 weeks?? My throat is going to suffer i guess. Heh. All back to back; one after another.. Ate from uncooked chicken wing to burnt/cooked chicken wings. Uncooked otah to burnt otah. Plus majority of TERRIBLY BURNT SAUSAGES. It was awfully black and fat. HAHAH. :) Pimples came knocking the door the very next day. (Big ones) It ain't a minor case dude. :( Haizzz, what to do. Want to have fun=pay the price for it.

Sunday went to Bugis, had my hair cut. :) Yay. Feels lighter now; somehow!! My fringe is extremely short AND it looks damn sick. Err. Like a 5 year old kid la. But in a gross-er version. :) HAHAH. Oh well. Shopped around and i managed to get a top amongst those crowded shops. (TRIPLE applause for me huh?)

I've conquered Bio amazingly. Like finish the stupid holiday homework in like 2 bloody hours. Pro or not? HAHAHA. k anyways. Still got more homework not completed. I always shudder to see that pile of work.

When to catch "Love Happens" when i have such a packed schedule?? This is infuriating. If that cheerleading training would not even have existed i guess i would be free by then. Ah ya. Absent for 1 training=$200 being ripped out from you. Scary or not?? It's like robbing a bank.

"Would you treat me as a stranger one day?
Would you turn your back someday?
If i could get another chance,
another walk,
another dance with you.
I'll play a song that would never ever end,
how i love love love to dance with my...."

You are the mirror of your breeding;
VanTan.

"Original Of The Species"

Getting Wet&Wild at WILD WILD WET!! The exhilarating rides got all of us on a frenzy. High Adrenaline rushes. 1 word: "Superb".
Queue up for a particular ride for more than thrice. I didn't get tired of it. :)
However, all of us didnt get any tanner. Blame it on the weather. It was like cloudy cum cooling. This type of weather should only appear when people are at home all day then they can sleep in longer. Hot and sunny weather should appear for us but it didnt. Me and Nellis wanted to get darker but sadly our mission was not accomplished. DAMNIT. ):

The weather was not the Heavy rain type but it did drizzle before the doors were open to the public. So yeah. Saw familiar faces with their bikinis as usual..
Next mission on the goooo is "Flea Mania" at Homeclub!! I'M DEFINITELY GOING TO GOOOO. I needa get my denim jacket.. Now I (L) denim!! YAYYYYY!! K.

I've still yet to catch "LOVE HAPPENS"!! AHHHHH. HOW?~ eeyer. So many things havent do yet. I'm getting flustered up with Bio. So many units to complete. Worst-Holiday-Homework-Everrrrrrr. Need to catch up on my reading soon!!

Shitttzz, I'm feeling damn lethargic. I do not feel like moving. But if i keep still in one position for to long, i'll get excess fats growig on me. I do not like that. So i think i should get up and do some JUMPINGG!! That's what keeps me from being glued to the com or anything else for too long!! HAHAH. k. That's all for the day~

Repertoire;
VANESSA//

"Rekindled Memories&Friendships"

Out to Marina With Shirleen and Joyce. It was obviously enjoyable with all the laughters again.
An outing without laughters=just cancel it la!! HAHA. Bought a hairband PLUS a ring.(It caught my eye for the damn first time) Shittzzz damn pretty!! :) (Y) got ittt!! Stayed at this particular toilet for more than 1/2 an hour. There is a reason why we stayed in that toilet that long. HAHA. pictures for extra details. I was quite surprised by the fact that there is actually like less than 3 people who use the toilet while we were inside being crazy. HAH. Prolly it was due to the off peak hours??

Next headed to ECP for " 203-togetherness" BBQ. HAHHA. It started off quite dreary and awkward. But surprisingly it managed to "end" with a BANGGG with esther's gossips. It was damn shiokkk! REALLY!!~(It was not too late after all..)
But the crowd was kinda pathetic? Approximately half the class didnt turn up. Aww, what a Big Shame. ): At lastttt, it didnt rain while we WERE BBQ-ING. (1st reason) AHHAA. LAST YEAR was like a failure la!! HAHA. This year (BESTTT) EVERRRRRRRR. *Thumbsss uppp*

Overwhelming of food~ Ate like there's no tomorrow. HHHAHA. (2nd reason why it was much much better than last year)

All in All, took like almost a 100 pictures in shirleen's camera. Wait there's more in Whitney's camera. Her camera got cool effects. (L) it to the MAXX..

Time can really crawl its way up..(especially sharing the gossips part) Wish it never ended. HAHAH.

Get this clear ah, I LOVE TO HEAR GOSSIPS BUTTTT not getting myself involved in gossiping. HAHAH. There's a MEGA HUGE difference ah.

Tomorrow Wild Wild Wet with Joyce, Shirleen, Nellis & Pamelia. HAHAHAHA. It has been ages since i last went there.... I needa revive my tan-ness!! It is FADING. ): IPRAY.. DONT RAIN AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! K FULL-STOP//

Dance. My Body Is Killing Me Right Now. Muscle pull everywhere. You name it I felt it. Shoulder Blades are about to break free from my body sooner or later. That's what you get in DANCE..
This is not the end folks, there's more. Cheerleading~ I hope i dont get thrown way up HIGH. I'll most probably drop dead. :)

Another more hour to Amath tution. More differentiation for me againnnn. AAAAAAAAHH!!

Freedom has taken its toll on Me;
(V)thn
I'll catch you soon...

"Annick Goutal"

Ytd's outing started at Tampines Mall and it ended at Vivo. Tamp mall for "My Sisters Keeper". Vivo for the alluring fashion shops. The show was kinda tragic. I think the actors were pretty GREAT!! Like when you watch you can empathise with them. HAHA. I think it applys to me only? HAHA. I DONT KNOW. :) Went to vivo that i havent been for 45825809300 years/even galaxy. Felt contented. Bought my elephant chain!! I'm into safari animals all of a sudden. And it doesn't feel right. Uhh?~

Wait!! Did i mention who i was out with?? Ok i think i didnt. Went out with 2 obviously lame people. (Shirleen & Kimberlyn) I think they both got each other's disease or something? 1 was the fish owner and the other obviously was the fish. I shall leave it up to your own creative mind to guess who is the owner and the pet. HAHAH. Joke of all times.

Laughed too much yesterday(practically everywhere and every moment). Played "Truth Or Dare" on kim's Iphone. The game can really make people feel embarrassed. The best part is ONLYY me and shirleen found out a secret that we wanted to know all along!! YAY~ FINALLY SHE TOLD IT TO US AFTER DONT KNOW HOW MANY YEARS LA!! Phewwww. Chill ah, we aren't telling anyone. See how good secret keepers we are. :) HAHHA. I was being hit many a times by that game. ALL the questions came bombarding at me. Wah had a hard time thinking of answers etc. Swear it was a major embarrassment. Ironically, It was fun enough to keep us occupied during the approximately 1/2 hour journey on the train:)

Hope the outing on 12 nov to wild wild wet would be a success. (DONT RAIN!!)

"It was due to that period of time that i found you were a little nicer and had a little compassion for others. KEEP GOING^^V!!"

While all that is lost, we only have memories that we can fall back on.
For that, you shall be the Kryptonite and I shall be the Superman.

When all perceptions take a turn for a good course. (That's all i ask for)

A Whiff Of Individuality;
VANthn.

"A Blue Piccadilly"

Though it is not the end of the week for the torturous structured lessons yettt, I shall make a closure to it.
Though we have a couple of free periods here and there, the lessons were such a bore and I felt i was attending some MEGA huge lecture/talk/seminar by teachers. Frankly speaking, i think they are just plainly rushing through every single thing. Like Math, WOAHHH. LOOK AT THE SPEED WE ARE COVERING 1 CHAPTER. IS LIKE damn bloody fast. The 1 lesson= to my tuition 3 lessons.(which i really get the correct concepts and all)

I know they are rushing cause we are taking our "Os" next year. But still.... SIGH.. *Speechless*
On to another topic;
Some have yet known the word "discreet". Whatever we do or say, we ourselves have to know where we are standing in the situation and know the whole situation itself in order for criticisms to be made.

Therefore, it is purely up to your own discretion to know what is the right thing to be said and what is taboo.
Having said that, I feel that some of us are just too naive and perhaps have not experience what you called "life challenges". Learn to be acceptive and receptive of who your friends are and not just by judging their background. :) Enough said on that///

Recently, i just have this thing on the word "odd".
The word "Odd" just shows that there will always be someone/something left out.
Being subconscious and living in this busy society has sometimes cause us to be uaware of who is being left out.

OH A BRIGHTER SIDE, I'M GOING OUTTTT TMR!! YAY!!~

I'll catch you soon;
VANESSA//

"You'll Just Gonna Be Another Fool"

Warning: This post is going to be just plainly on what i really admire and obviously the opposite of it.

1. I admire people with an edgy character.
2. I admire people who can make decisions for themselves and not just by following the crowd.
3. I admire those whose originality stands out from the rest.
4. I admire those who have a strong mind of their own and is not easy for others to change their minds.
5. I just plainly admire the word "Originality"
6. I admire those who have an aloof character.
7. I admire those who have a quiet personality but think deeply.
8. I admire those with nice slitty single eyelids.
9. I admire guys who do not stare(with saliva drooling) at girls like the majority would.
10. LASTLY, IF YOU FALL UNDER THE ABOVE POINTERS, YOU'LL JUST MAKE/BE MY LIFE LONG HARCORE 1 AND ONLY SOUL MATE!!

With Hatred For:

1. I detest when somebody just follow the crowd for the sake of it. (This just plainly sucks)
2. I detest when guys oogle at other girls even though they find the girls hot. (If there is a need to glance at them, no need so obvious right?) It happens too many a times already/
3. I will tend to make someone become more decisive if they themselves are too softhearted as a human being who exist on motherearth. (abit off the topic)
4. I detest long waits
5. I detest some singaporeans when they show their un-coolness facade in the public.(MAJOR EMBARRASSMENT TO BE PART OF THEM)

THAT'S ALL FOR THE DAY.
Enjoy these pointers. :) HAHAHA.

Oh yes!! HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! TREATS/ TRICKS??:)

"We are not what we think we are; We are Golden..."

Meet Me Halfway;
VANNN/

"MidNight BLUE"

An eventful weekend i guess.

Saturday was at Joey's 15th birthday party. The place is ulu and far. But the chalet is damn BIG. HAHA. I think that's like the best part of it only:) like some big bungalow!!

Oh well, kinda felt lost and exceptionally uncomfortable. Cause her bro's friends are more than her friends. WAH. hundreds of them. Scattered everywhere. There is isn't 1 place that you wouldn't meet any of them. Seriously!!

Sunday went to Raffles City. Went to topshop to look for cheap thrills!! FOUND IT. AND I'M SATISFIED:)

Monday(TODAY): Had school excursion to CHIJMES. Kinda boring if you asked me how was it. However the best part was that we could just be out of school for a day. More excursion plz. YAY. K.

I'm contemplating on whether i should go Bugis tmr? SHOULD I? :)

Oh on a lighter note:
THIS WHOLE WEEK, SCHOOL IS ENDING AT 1245. EARLY DISMISSAL=WILD CHILDREN.

Went to dentist just now, had a change of rubberbands. Now they fixed in the so called "power chains" to them. It's hurting me):

"I'm loosing faith and gravity, you'll all i need to know"

There is a hero in us all;
VAN/

"Remember Remember Remember... Remember My Name"

Was out yesterday to town with the same eight-some except joey was not there due to some reason. We caught the show "Fame", to me it was alright but to atika it was terrible. If you ask me how to elaborate this issue, i do not know how.. HAHA.

Next, the outing was sorta messy? everywhere la. I think due to me and shirleen's fault? Cause we got this urge to look for things that we had planned earlier. Sorry if we have "neglected" y'all by walking at extremely high speed, but quite fun la finding ppl like amazing race? But sometimes kinda annoying also. :)

Today was the Atomic Bomb Day!!
It rule your destiny.
It controls your emotions.
It let frustration and angst get the better of you/
It decides whether you are strong enough to accept whatever that has been thrown to you.
And the day is called......... Results day=1 of my most top chartered enemy in my whole life!!

Maths was totally filled with careless mistakes='TOOPID
Chinese was like disaster?
Core lit was like the mediator for both subjects. It led me to cool down a little.
If not i'll would have gone bersek. Like REALLY!! not lying.

The next 2 days i'll be facing is equally challenging for me. All thrown directly at my face. Accept or Rebel? Does every examination not always end up with a happy ending? I'm just pondering and questioning myself every now and then. Lastly, would there be someone who would eventually give me the answers to all my questions? Perhaps not. Being a human being; having your own human instinct naturally tells us to "Care for ourselves ONLY". Am i most correct to say that?

"Could it be a turning point or yet another downfall?"

These Hard Times,
VANESSA/

"Ancient Archives"

The word "Freedom" has been stripped off from me for the past 3 weeks and the word "Routine" has nicely set itself in me. It may sound magical, but you dont really want that to happen i believe..

On a lighter note, I have just officially conquered "THE EVIL AND HATED EOYs".
I feel a fair bit of sense of relief however i'm not fully satisfied tho. ): Ohhhoo well.

*Digging up past information that i haven't updated blogger*
1) iphone has been with me for a dear 1 week. <3!!!!!!>

2)Addicted to tap tap revenge. Who wants to play with me and beat my score?:)
3)Felt a little smarter after each major exam. I dont know why this feeling but yeah..

HAHAHA.

Who with a right frame of mind would just go home straight after the last day of exam? The answer would be just: ME only. It's kinda unlikely that i would go home straight after my last paper however the unusual me just did it today/ Does it call for a celebration? So from here i think you can seize up whether am i in a right frame of mind now.. It is mind boogling; and i h8 it.

I'm sorry but i have to say this.. Why did it have to be you who dampened my mood? Of all person. I know it isn't your fault but i just couldnt stand this anymore.
"Imposing rules on a person just lead to him/her being more rebellious". That's what i think.
Mistakes that I've learnt from planning, never get too involve in planning something as any moment the word "cancel" would be on the go. Your hopes can be held as high up where the planets are and for a minute it can just drop like a bomb and land all the way down, way down where nobody knew you even existed... Get my pointttt?.. If you are wondering, I am not blaming you for this, lest i can any questions from you.

Amath it is all your fault that i couldn't get to catch the newly premiered episode of "Polo Boys" yesterday!!!
It is a pretty much of an anatomy show. Some hot guys would be eye candy for some desperado out there.. ^^V. Hot stuff. AHHAHAH.

Plus, i think i'm suffering from bipolar. Like super real. HAHAH. I get solemn and angsty for a minute and jubilant the next. See the BIG contrast? :) I think that's prolly due to me being home alone now. The peace and tranquility is just enough for this whole day that i'm facing..

Go out Go out Go out!!(X100956959) Yes the urge i'm encountering..
I think i need to talk to somebody now. Who would want to be my confidante?

PS: Joyce i will miss you!!:)

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Silence can be frightening however if you do look at it in another point of view, you might just enjoy every minute of it.

By the numbers;
VAN/

"Warwick Avenue"

Crazier Crazier crazierrrrrrRRRrr..

Today marks the start of a new month.(1st October). Plus the start of EOYS.

English paper today. It's kinda usual la. The EXPECTED-TYPE of paper. No choice. Being in a school that pursues english at higher level.. Sigh.

Anyways, TMR is CHINESE. HOW COOL. I'M STILL HERE TYPING HUH. Oh well.

There's so many things happening right now. I do not know where to begin and i think i should go for a break as i have to prepare for major exams.

I'll leave you with this:

It often has layers of meaning.

You need interpretive, not just descriptive skills to uncover these layers.

Interpretive skills are the critical tools that are essential to appreciate these layers.

Literary effect is more significant than mere identification and description of tools.

More Often Than Not, You just dont understand somebody well enough..

This is the saying that makes me think that BRAIN is everything!!
"Any women can flash skin but the most irresistable damsel is the one who seduces and flirts with a sharp and knowledgeable mind"-- Ronda Rich.

Something Beyond.

I'll definitely catch you soon!

Lady luck, please be with me!
VAN/

~Hoi Polloi~

----Its just another ritual cycle of day i'm experiencing again.----

Dance=music=yoga=steps=WATERRRR.

I've just realised that dancing to "If I Ain't Got You" by Alicia Keys is some what quite an emotional process. I doubt anyone of you can feel what i'm feeling right noww.

So nexttttt, came back from dance..

Just completed my Lit Essay(Over achieversss)

1 more school Eoy paper and some trigo questions up for due next Monday(Tuition).

Today is the BIG DAMN DAY that i got interested in some French words that can be use in English essays/context.

Tomorrow marks the end of the week(End of Term 4 week 1). See how fast this world is moving.
Get the point??! OF COURSE YOU DOOO!

ANYWAYS, Its been such a hassel to re-memorise what I've learn in term 1-3. By re-memorising these facts, it'll just shortened my life by another 5 years. Can you imagine like each chapter has like prolly more than 15 pages(approx) and there is an average of more than 6 chapters you have to memorise for each BLOODY SUBJECT. Just Sit Down And Imagine Thattt. You'll be scared to DEATH! Very awesome huh/

For Science, I think by looking at the rate my class is scoring, (no offence though) Albert Einstein must be digging a hole in the ground and spinning his head inside it. Is like (Science-Damn-Terrible-Take-To-Disgrace-His-Great-Inventions) concept. I referring more to myself if you are wondering..

PS: I LOVE MY CURRENT BLOG SONG. FYI, I'VE BEEN PLAYING IT MORE THAN 20 TIMES I GUESS. Chris Daughtry HOLD A CONCERT IN SINGAPORE CAN??!!!
You'll make like tons of money!! HAHAH

...It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise..

Fools In Love;
VANNNN/

"Would You Ever Regret The Choices You Made?"

An-8-some-outing. Enjoyed it. :) I was labelled a cheaterz for not abiding to the dress code when i actually enforced it on them. (JOKE?)

Never sit beside atika for a movie as she will wrongly accuse you of "non-stop blabbering". (Felt so offensive)--jkjk eh--

Never start to plan something. Cause it can sometimes be kinda chaotic?

Never slack at the end of the outing as it will spoil everything. HAHA. (Pek cek)

NELLIS FOO! THANKS FOR THE POLAROID. :) BEAUTIFUL!

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Gold Heat
Do you sense that bad omen?
"Qualifications do not equal education" Wondered that?
Or maybe we should just talk about it now.

There is beauty in learning for learning itself. The idea of education is thought as a life long process, not just something to memorise to fill in examination scripts. Oh well, writing essays and applying equations are only just a tiny stream of a larger, deeper and boundless ocean. (Credits to my IDOL) :)

While some may be curious on what's this all about, maybe you should try think deeper into it.
To the majority(i guess), do not like to study. I am stating the fact, aint I?

Would there even be a possibility that the ministry of education would let all of us learn perhaps a different genre of arts/studies etc and develop each and everyone of us in our own creativity etc and not just dead memorising of scientific facts. WOULDNT IT BE BETTER. If all of these i mentioned would actually came true I think I'm living in another part of the world.

Have you encountered anybody who did relatively well in their entire school life and didnt managed to get a proper job in the working world? I think this would be a case of 0000.00001% of happening. AS you know that Singapore is extremely well-known for "paper". Well it means that they are more interested in the number of As you are getting and the number of certificates you are receiving instead of your creativity.

Let me share with you this fact: A person who has the highest qualifications and the thousands of certificates in the world doesnt really prove that he/she is really that that that SMART. If you really think otherwise you could say he/she is regurgitating facts that he/she have learnt and that shows how they have gotten those certs. So therefore you should anticipate what i'm going to say. Well, that leaves it up to your wild imagination folks!:)

Ps: This post is certainly not about discriminating anybody lest i get any weird ppl bombarding my blog but just plainly about penning down my deep thoughts. :)

PPSS: While I'm here typing relentlessly, there are piles of A math exam papers CALLING MY NAME~

I'll catch you soon;

VTHNNNN.

"Bring Me On A Magical Ride"

Oh well lets say "GOODBYE" to my long week/weekends.

Saturday: 1pm to 930pm had East District Youth Day!(EDYD) at Chij katong primary. Finally this is the damn first time i see the new building. BIG THOUGH. IT LOOKS LIKE A MAZE. THE TOILETS ARE CUTEeeezz. (BASIN, MIRROR ETC are all small) ahha. DAMN CUTE. Is like when i look into the mirror i can only see myself from my stomach onwards. HAHA/ Imagine that. :)HARDECORE HARDCORE and even more HARDCOREEE. HAHA. Went RAH-RAH with teresa(kinda unusual), Bianchine, Claire and Charlotte plus Rach Corera. HAH. JUMP HERE JUMP THERE. Even better we got snapped a few times by the in-house photographers. HAHA. famous already la. QOP though small but HYPER. The rest like so boring one stand there and stone. WALAO EH. YOUTH RALLY EH, HELLO?! let your hair down for 1 bloody day la. MUST LACK ABIT YO. HAHA. So yeah. Had FUN!! WhooHoo~

Sunday: Woke up like normal school time 6am? to like prepare for the Marine Parade GRC(some town council carnival thing on) Damn chaotic one. HAH. Met at macs to do everything from hair to make-up. **I'm actually damn damn surprise by the fact that we didnt get thrown out ahha** Is like normally this type of public areas especially where there is business going on i thought they would fine us a nuisance or annoying at these public place. But surprisingly we stayed till like 9am? With no complaints. GOOD RIGHT?! AHHA. Our performance ended at close to 11am.

Went home then Went out again to Novena till 9plus pm. Wah that one is force to go one la. Damn tiring. Stand for like 4864863945 hours la. Leg pain already):

O HEY there's one more thing i noticed when i was out at novena:

1)The Older you are the more stubborn you become (TRUE)

2)Singaporeans cannot wait. They CHIONG like shit.(REALLY TRUE)

3)Singaporeans like to push their way through. (DAMN TRUE)

4)Singaporeans loves Free Stuffs( WOAH THIS IS ULTIMATE)

Today finally can relax. Went for dental. Super pain, got rubber bands in my teeth.): I yearn for this day. HAHA (jkJk)

Tmr YAY! Outing!! to town.

An outing with 8 people. (Deonn, Nellis, Joey Ang, Rach W. , Atika, Shirleen and Joyce)

We'll break the record YEAH?! hahah.

K tmr tmr tmr. :)

We'll end here for today!

VAN^^V

"Leave Out All The Rest"

Firstly, my last post was approximately a gauge on how often i use the computer. Quite a fair bit of accomplishment righttt??! HAHA.

Secondly, today's the real actual date for "HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY"! Have Fun:)

Thirdly, and the most importantly..... i'm getting my iphone 3gs IN JUST A FEW HOURS!!!!!! IS LIKE MY WISH FOR DONT KNOW HOW MANY MONTHS and is granted! YESSS!

Yesterday:

-Celebration for teachers' day- concert, class parties etc

-We performers=the loosing end. Dont get to enjoy the fun in the parties. HAHHA

They are having parties and we making up like shit. HAHAHA:)

-The cool thing is we pone everything except mass. THE MASS WAS DAMN HOLY SHIOKK!

We put up 2 items. Quick Change like mad. Worst then some celebrities that hold concerts in (SIS) I mean seriously, with like all the sweat then change into another costume, untie hair etc.

If you sit down and actually think of school work plus exams is like O-M-G SIAN!
Not much time left):
So many topics.
EOY exam is like testing us, students on our threshold level and our brain absorbent rate. Sad Case la!

Hate it when is like this!!):

Theres too many shows that came out at one go and i've yet to catch them!! Feel so Angry. AHHH. Ohh well. (nvm)

This post is actually quite brief. I also Dont Know Why..

With that love;

VAN/

"DARK HORSE"

-Math why do you have to be so cruel this time?! Do You Know How Much I LOVE YOUU?!!

-1 word: Exhausted!!
-I seriously need a Dream-catcher from Alaska NOWWW. My dreams all all running away from ME):

-Please empathise with me

-I love my Tie Yi Buddy. She rocks like shitt! YESS!

-Dance steps please get yourself organised in my BRAIN.

-EOY please get further away from me.

-I need time, does any shop here in Singapore sells TIME? TELL MEEE, i go this very MINUTE!

-Are you satisfied dear girl? Yes, surely will be your reply.

-Literature i love you too. Better give me good grades i tell you:)

-Hope i dont die tmr(Dance & tution straight away)

-Laugh lesser it will make a HUGE difference.

-Keeping quiet sometimes give you a different persona. I LIKE!

-Be a fast learner for Everything i learn under the sun!

-I feel like crashing into my laptop now.

-8 days does not help me get any new ideas. Its just crappy.

As you can see, this is like some rubbish post. Is like whatever i'm thinking i'm typing it out.
Totally unorganised. Points are not string into nice sentences.

Dont be so cruel next time, MATH.
YOU ARE MY HOPEEEE!

In a full revolution;

Van

"Freedom Is Nothing Else But To Be Better"

This weeks observations:
"Must real steady lovers show their affection through public affirmation?"

Saw some disturbing scenes which is totally PLUS absolutely... ah you know the words to fill in the blank.

My POOR eyes somehow is going to deteriorate further?(NOT literally).

1)Does public affirmation make you more secure in relationships?
2)Are you afraid to lose the guy/girl?

3)Do you trust your opposite partner?

Oh well i think all these pointers contribute to the "main" topic for this post.

When you look at teenagers french in public your mind totally switch to the "Copy-The-Europeans-again" mode.
Does Singaporean teenagers not have any originality at ALLL?

You dont need constant calling and sms-ing to assure that your girl/boyfriend is still into you.

I think i think differently from others..

-Both parties need their own space. (Intimacy is not the key word in r'ship)

-Changing yourself for a guy can be the most ______ thing to do. (negative)

FOR ALL THESE, NO OFFENCE. REALLY:)

CAs have just flew pass, EOYs will just start to wave at me soon.

I HAVE DANCE FOR THE WHOLE NEXT WEEK. ABSOLUTELY GOOD HUH?!!

This is worst than a life of a Sota kiddo.

Muscles will set themselves IN me and say HEY to extra weight.

A fact: "Muscles weigh heavier than fats". >>>>> REAL FACT.

So i think is not a positive thing..

FAILURE: This word dont pop up to some people for no reason. Some dont even have that word in their vocabulary.

However, "failure" has this affinity with me. (IS GOOD THAT YOU DONT HAVE IT)

I dont really confide my problems to anyone even to my bestest friends. I DONT REALLY HAVE A CONFIDANTE though.

I'LL END THIS JUMBLE POST.

"What You Look May Not Always Be The Truth"

Face It;

VAN

(My owl combine with Jyeo's heart)
CAN GO SELL AS NEW CREATION^^V

"Yet To Be Invaded"

QUITE BACKDATED.
I feel like a human archives somehow. (Recalling backdated histories) HAHAHA.

Friday:
Had national celebration in sch. Followed by torturous dance practice/(Congrats DEONN-choir president plus head of.. public relations is it?) HAH not sure 'bout that.

Dance ended at 1pm then went home after that rushed out with shirleen to ion to meet jas and kim. ION IS DAMN BORING I CAN ASSURE YOU AND REASSURE YOU. ITS A DAMN HIGH CLASS PLACE PLUS EXPENSIVE PLACE ONLYYY FOR THE RICH. I stepped in felt this Richness aura. Doesnt feel Good. HAHAH/ Came across this chicken ramen that cost $16.90!! Who on earth would buy that??? PLUS NOT IN RESTAURANT is like some eatery cart? TSK TSK TSK. Oh-kay ANYWAYS...then went to taka open area to cam whore AFTER that went to taka itself and yeah. I DAMN LAZY TO TYPE OUT ALREADY LA.

Movin' ON..

Sunday:
HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY DEAR COUNTRY. (Actually spore quite young ah?) HAHA

Caught ndp '09 on tv. For a moment i was damn patriotic, i sang like all the songs they played PLUS THE ANTHEM and said the pledge too. The feeling was totally GREAT!! Felt a feeling of reassurance to be a Singaporean. HAHA.

THIS YEAR NDP THEME SONG WAS THE BEST THEY CAN EVER HAD. (What Do You See?)

Observations: 1) no "Singapore" word inside.
2) A more upbeat genre. (Rock/Indie)
3)My Fav Local band group!! ^^V.

Electrico was like somehow not very well-known to singaporeans even though it was a local band. (quite ironic ah?)

They've been my n0.1 local band since sec 1? HAHAHA!

Electrico I'm damn proud of you. 8) YOU'RE FINALLY MORE KNOWN after singing the NDP theme song! YAY! k.

Caught Singapore Idol too. I had a DAMN GOOD LAUGH.. :)HAHAH

VANESSA SUPPORTS LOCAL BANDS!
<3s

"Labels Or Love"

Vanessa Is Feeding On Literature. (AMSND)~

Literature CA3 tmr.
Chinese CA3:5th Aug
Elect Geog CA3:6 Aug

DOES THESE DATES LOOK PLEASING TO YOU?
DEFINITELY NOTTTTTT.

I think I'm on a tuition marathon. Ytd A math(Extra cum revision) Today A math again(Normal class)

2 days straight having Amath tution.

I want to go NDP preview!! I'VE GOT THIS URGEEEE...

I'VE yet watch Harry Potter. Many said it was disappointing?!
BUT I WANNA SEE IT FOR MYSELF.

Dance tmr=over use of muscles. (Routine)

I'm in need of JUST 2 BLOODY THINGS: (grant it)
1) 3g S iphone
2) HAIRCUT. (my hair is like some weeds never prune for ages)

WAIT I NEED TO HIT THE BULL'S EYE FIRST.

K GTG. TUITION HERE I COME FOR YOUU..(dreary tone)

Extraordinary;

VAN/

"When Superiority Gets The Better Of You"

I mentioned in the previous post that I will catch Blogger soon. I Did Kept My Promise somehow. :) GREAT.
I MADE A RECORD EVER SINCE SCH RE-OPENED. IDIDNTUSETHECOMPUTERFOR3WHOLEDAMNDAYS!! cool or not?:)
BETTER SAY YES, CAUSE THIS IS SO NOT VANESSA.

I did not realised that i have such strong will-power. AMAZING.

Just So You Know, CCA "finally" resumes this week. The weeks were fine without CCAs.
So i guess i've lost that momentum and that "boost" that i had in sec1.
Having CCA or not doesn't actually make any DIFFERENCE.

Ironically, I'm actually looking forward to next week and the subsequent weeks of dance(somehow)? As we'll be doing Yoga/Pilates. Finally a change in genre. I've been longing for it since 25435245 centuries. So It Finally Came.

1 thing i've noticed today.
Superiority has put to a bad use. Or SHALL I SAY it has been abuse drastically.
Being a head in something doesnt gives you the right to look down on others, treat others as trash or shout which you think is at the appropriate time.
I'M REALLY GLAD THAT THE SEC4s finally stepped down. (No offence) BUT STILLL...

So far you have a quite a nice status though.. best class plus not bad in dance.

You could say is the best combination anyone can ever have but but but... You just dont seem to connect with people around you and understand them well enough.

Had it ever dawn to you that sometimes using the hard approach can fail you?
I guess you never discovered that.

Would the word "soft approach" be in your vocabulary?

From what i see i dont think so.

You abuse your status in your whim and fancy. Thinking that what you are doing is absolutely correct. In addition, no one dares to rebel against you or voice out their heartfelt opinions to you.Those who expresses it out to you are those who are considered "close" to you or in the same class as you. You cant protest on what i've just said because it is the actual fact.

What i meant by using the soft approach is not the literal meaning. Is not being too relax with the whole club and letting them off without any principles in life. What i actually meant was that to work well with EVERYONE, you seriously have to sit down and understand what they really one and letting yourself be more approachable.

I'm glad you are not the head anymore as with each day you are around you just make me loose the passion i have for dance and that "boost" that i had in Sec1.

Is not just me who feels this way but many.

Little do you expect that maybe 1 day everyone just turn their backs on you..

That would just be the ultimate showdown and your doom's day.

The new committee is definitely better.

But please dont adopt the same attitude as the previous. :)

The feeling of pressured.

All thats left is you;

VAN/

"All these Heroes come and go"

Today is Sunday=church+cat class.
Mass=playing tap tap with claire tan. Plus squeezing pimples from a person's face. If thats sounds real to you. FYI: Its a game. HAHAHA/ damn FUNNN!

TAP TAP DAMN FUN!!

AHHHH. IWANNAGETANIPHONE. zzzZZZ. If only this could come true.. :)

Bio Quiz tmr=SIAN+intense learning! (HARDCORE ehzz)
I'M TAKING EVERY TEST/QUIZ I HAVE DAMN BLOODY SERIOUSLY!!

PLUSSS, i forgot how do Amath trigo. (THE IDENTITIES) I'm like confusedddd.

TMR 2 PERIODS OF SS. Somehow i love "SS".(secret meaning) Hahaha. Can bully Mrs. A.T. SHE DAMN JOKE!!

OH WELL, GTG NOW.
Catch you soon Blogger/

MOWTOWNS;

VAN/

"A Reverie"

It was pretty much of an absurdity that i face in school now-- Unreasonableness, irky friends, concoting stories etc..

Getting upset with friends over grades isn't all that matters. Without character it all comes back

to failure.
If getting all A1s is what really matters to you, i suggest that a change of character/mindset would be sufficient.

You may be my friend, but in actual fact you are my competitor when it comes to school work.(Irony you may say? But is just the REAL WORLD.)

There's something deep within you that causes friction between us. I couldn't figure it out at the first place but thinking of it i finally get it. There's only a handful of us that can tolerate this particular "character" of yours.(due to high threshold level i guess?)

PS: If you get this insinuation, you are superb reading between the lines!:)

ALRIGHTz, moving on..

-Next Monday:SS SAQ test(ERR..)
-Thursday: Fact Test on mocking bird(HOW AWESOME? DIEE)
-CA3 coming up! LIKE RIGHT UP!>>> both math are testing on the topics which i thoroughly detest!
-20th July: Bio TEST/QUIZ. (DOUBLE DIEEE!)

*see THE PATTERN*(there's like the word "test" in all of them)

I was forced to go for this Australian Math Olympiad thing. And Mrs L. says that it is a privilege to get picked. I GUESS anybody with the right frame of mind wouldn't want to go for it. AHHA.
They are like testing on IQ can. NOT MATH ONE LA. OOWWEELL.. this is another doom's day.

"When you really want something the universe always conspires in your favour".(Paul Coelho)

To comment: I dont think that there's any element of truth in this sentence.(for me)
It dont happen to me somehow.
Maybe is my raison d' etre..

Body Of lies;
VAN